love
i am half in love with my friend. he dosn't know and thinks i am just fond of him. he is in love with a 19 yr old who dosn't seem to be in love with him. they have both just broken off relationships with others and it seems they are together ( i use the term lightly ) just to be each others safety nets. she seems to be uncomfartable when he touches her, she dosn't sit close or return physical touches. she seems to shy away from him. he is so serious about her i am worried, i know he is going to be hurt and there is no way i can stop it. maybe it is something that needs to be done, maybe he needs to feel a bit of the sting of loss. everything seems to come easily to him, almost as if he is the golden child. i like them both and worry about how this will effect them. i can't help but feel that maybe they found each other to early. i told another friend that if she was older and had allready done the things that he had or anyone who is just a bit older, that it could possibly work. anyway, obbesing over it will do me no good. night.

back to work
how i hate my job. i am sure that many feel this way and some love it but at moments despise it. i can honestly say hate is the best way to describe how i feel. i was injured by a passenger who threw a stroller at me and today i am heading back. i dread it. i am tired of being treatred with no repect and disdain, being accused of molesting people and violating their civil rights. anyway i have to get dressed and go. were my lovely uniform and name tags. sigh, i need a new job, at least i am applying.

intro to me
please, excuse the spelling and punctuation. my spelling is crap and run on sentences are the bane of my. i don't know why i chose to do this but what the hell. i live in the northwest, it rained today and all in one nice package. i have a cat, her name is sassafras, she is a bitch but i love her. i will be 27 on the 30th of this month and hope to find a date by then. i had gastric bypass surgery a year ago and have since lost 220 pounds. i have not had a date in 8 years. on wed. i was hit on by a man old enough to be my father and a nasty old pervert fondled himself when i walk by all in the same day. now only if we could subtract 20 years from the first and make the second at least a little . my friend T. was with me and we had just purchased coin scarfs for belly dancing, the jingle helps with the shimmy. we had just left a local adult shop ( i was showing her the really neat stock) any way after the shop the pervert struck, then we went to dinner, the old man struck after dinner. aside from them the water at the was really yummy. sleep calls, blessed be all.